Today, on this date, I’m happy to be “ME”

It’s no longer the same after 8th of this month. I know I need to add (+) one more year to my age. But first of all, how old am I? Why am I kept forgetting my age? Why I need a calculator at all time when I wanted to how old I am? Hmmm, maybe because I have stopped calculating it already.

Eight have dominated my life somehow in every positive ways I would say. Somehow, I could be a destiny child for eight. I felt the number so much in me. Maybe, that’s way I got attracted it so much.

I knew everything and anything happened in my life is happened for a reason. The good, the bad, the hurdles, the hard work, the stress, the frustration, the pain, the lost, the miserable, the loneliness, the abusive, the joy carries its very own reason.

To tell the truth, I didn’t really do anything in my life with a concise thought. I was merely following my heart and what is right at that time.

I don’t really give serious thought to anything in my life except when I’m sad.

I don’t enjoy talking about my personal life and feelings to anyone in my life. I love to keep it to myself. I enjoy loneliness in my own way. I love to do self talk. Today, I realised I have lost myself talk in the process of growing up. I’ll die keeping my life only to myself. None, would really know the real me and I like to keep it that way.

I’m glad for staying grounded. I’m glad; I always know the reality of life. I’m glad, I don’t easily get influenced.

Today, I want to thank the MOTHER of NATURE for moulding me to whom I am today. I’m happy I spent so much time of my life with nature instead of people.

I’m happy to be who I am. I’m glad; I’m born this way.

I know I’m unique in my own way. I know I’m being very truthful to myself. I know I’m very sincere in heart.

I know I’m not someone in this society yet. I know I’m not rich yet. I know I’m not there yet where I’m supposed to be. But, I’m happy to be who I am today.

Today, on this date, I’m happy to be “ME”

Besides my flaws, I’m blessed more than I should.

Happy Belated Birthday #tamaka

tatta, (Bubbye)

#tamaka

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[Street Life] Pasar Seni #KualaLumpur

I never thought being early at street and witness the daily life can teach me life changing lessons. From ordinary people to a beggar, it requires consistent hard work to survive. The street lives I had witnessed had inspired me to work harder. The daily hustle of ordinary people reminds me how laid back I am. So far, it’s been a great motivation for my life. Thus, I have created these series, hoping it will inspire you too.

All pictures shared here are mostly captured on early morning to best reflect the hustles. All snaps are taken within Malaysia unless stated otherwise.

The sweeper who is working hard on weekend for that low salary because he has family to feed. 

The feeling of ignored on our country when we are struggling to secure a job while foreigners are easily starting up a business.

The hardship of surviving of ignored and abandoned people in the city. Life is not fair for everyone. Surviving is the most things in life.


This young couple are around their 70’s wondering around city holding hand. What a great message for a great marriage life.

[#tamakaTravelLog] Pangkor the Beach #Lumut

Date: 22 April 2017           Days: 2 days

Being a “Perakian”, I have never been to Pangkor until April this year.

It was a sudden plan by my mom. She is approached by her friend who is also our neighbour. This is the first time she had asked me to bring her to a trip. So, I agreed to her request without a second thought.

This is my first time visit to Pangkor. Although, it was a simple getaway, Pangkor impressed me. It’s such a beautiful heaven indeed.

We had rented a chalet typed room with only MYR100 at Teluk Nipah. To our surprise, the room can be easily accommodate by 4/5 people. It also comes with an extra bed. That means the average cost per person is only MYR20. The owner of the chalet is a cool guy. He didn’t even bother how many of us are staying in a room. *Mind voice: I should have brought my entire family. The bathroom is slightly narrow where it’s purposely design such a way to allocate more space for the bed. Who want the bathroom when the beautiful beach is just five minutes away by walking distance?

On our first day, we visited the famous Pangkor Kaaliyaman temple. The temple is still under renovation and to be completed very soon.

Then, we rented a van with MYR80 p/day to tour the Island. The driver also carries tour guy role. He is an Indian. After a long chat, we found out the guy is our long distance relation. The world is getting smaller by the day.

We started with Pangkor Muzium tour (obviously, this is not my mom’s kind of stuff). After that, a Chinese temple, a jetti, the dok, the famous handmade mee company, the low priced seafood shop, the Pangkor helipad, the best snorkelling areas, the beaches and good value hotels.

Then, we settled in our rooms to enjoy our home cooked lunch. Right after the lunch, we decided not to waste time. We changed our dress and headed to beach. It seems like we couldn’t be bothered by 4pm.

The beach is just a five minutes away from our stay. A well kept beach with crystal clear water is home for living corals. There are few small islands located few distance away from main beach which is good for coral visit. This beach view is too overwhelming for eyes.  I didn’t know Pangkor beaches can be this entertaining and stress relieve beauty.

 It seems like my mom couldn’t resist the very eye catching beach, so she decided to jump into waves to enjoy the sea water. She also enjoyed the little swing with her own singing talent. I rarely see a smile in her face. Witnessing her joy is the best thing happened to me in this trip. I videotaped of her swing happiness to keep it unto my memory.

There are also many water motorsport activities available with reasonable price to boost enjoyment. This time I have decided to skip them and will try them in my next visit.

For dinner, we enjoyed wet kuew tiew and fresh shellfish. Since the seafood is so fresh here, so I have decided to try the shellfish after so many years and it didn’t disappoint me.

On late night, we had a walk and bought some souvenirs. To my surprise my mom bought me a ke chain for my car. This is the first time she is buying a souvenir for me and I’m so impressed. I want her to do the selection for me so I have decided to keep my choices to myself. This is one of the precious gifts I ever received. Thanks mom.

The next morning, I woke up early and decided to take a walk to the beach. These crazy people love the beach so much until they have decided to get wet as early as 7pm. Crazzzy.

The morning scenery is way more beautiful. I think I sat on those rocks for more than an hour until I couldn’t realise the tide and I lost my shoes to the sea.(maybe she had an eye on my shoes I guess)

Then, we did nothing much but get wet all day long until we get tired and decided to go home around 3pm.

I’m planning for second visit to this place on coming August with my whole family.

Till then, wait for my Pangkor II post.

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tatta, (Bubbye)

#tamaka

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Move On : The Only Option You Have Right Now

I was sincere. In fact, we were both sincere to each other. Yet, how could this happen? And, why “I” triggered this?
Out of nowhere, something happened. Something pulled us apart. We are separated without fighting, without telling each other and without any reason.

We walked our own path. We never looked for each other. (It could be my guilty concise, It could be his ego)  Time flies. Days to months and months to years. I knew we loved each other; seven years passed by just like that. It was first love to both of us.

I heard he is getting married.  I got those news two days before his wedding day. I’m helpless. I felt alone. I can’t do much about it.  I’m happy for him though. He MOVED ON. He made his life decision and he is going for it. I can only send my wishes to him over the sky.

I spent years asking the “why” question to the sad ending story. I couldn’t move without knowing the reason. One day, without knowing I learnt to accept the fact “it’s not meant to be” and I and he wouldn’t have been who we are today if it is not the way it is.

I accepted the fact. I tell myself “you have to MOVE ON; you have no other option”. Then, I MOVED ON.

I MOVED ON that I do not want look back.

I MOVED ON and learnt to bury the memories.

I MOVED ON stopped looking for an answer.

I MOVED ON and stopped thinking.

I MOVED ON left all the sadness.

I MOVED ON leaving my past behind.

I MOVED ON to be myself.

I’m glad I MOVED ON.

P.s. My past on his birthday. “Happy Birthday”- Remembering the written word in the unsent cards

Tatta, (Bubbye)

#tamaka